you've got everything now...

Fall is in balance, and it is very obvious in my environment. For some apparent reason it always means that I listen to lots of Bad Religion, take limited time off from the road to embrace New York City, and I always make at least 1 slight change in my appearance. I suppose it's just the supersticious side of me that drummer's always tend to have instilled in them. The fall of 2008 has been more than just a new style of coat, an 80 block walk around Manhattan, or "No Control" on repeat for me. It has been an anthem of moving on. And for once, I'am way cool with that. I have way too much legit potential in me to dwell on what has happend for the worse this year, and have nothing to worry about. I realize that I can stay on the road for as long as I want doing what I do best, and if anything, the more musicians / individuals i meet, the more power, talent, expierience, and knowledge i will aquire towards my already impressive ability. I'am going back to Europe in late November - mid December, and I could not be anymore excited. I have a chance to play with some pretty rad kid's who I finally get an oppurtunity to know. Not to mention, get loose to songs on a record they have released that has just jav'd me up on 4 shots of espresso! I'am positive it will be a fresh time.

Another thing with moving on that I have come to realize, you are never alone. Although I never really have that character flaw of lonliness( luckily), I noticed alot of rad people around me who are very worried about that department, so it just had me thinking alot lately. And it's harder for others to overcome it, but I look at it this way. Take a talent or ability that you have. If you are really good at it, enjoy it, or have a goal that you want to reach with it, then you are not alone. You will always be accompanied by that trait, and as long as your passion runs deep for it, then you are in great company forever.

Next, the trait that you have will often lead into bonds you have made around your skill. I consider myself so wealthy that out of music, I have met so many kinds of individual's globally. Many of them I'am lucky enough to stay in touch with very often, and see time to time when I roam into town, or whenever they visit the east coast. Some I may never want to meet again, but I take that energy and make sure it rinses into my inspiration in moving on, staying the person that I'am, and out punking that mentalilty the poor individual has to offer. Which leads to inspiration! That word is some of the best company any of us will ever have. Without that drive of creativity and motivation, then you are truely lonely!

So basically, lonliness is something that just does not come from being out of a relationship with someone. That's cool if you have that luxury, but it's not the end of the world if you do not. I'am fine with not being tied down to such a commitment right now. And if it happens, it happens. Why the fuck should I rush into such a serious matter that could really shit on someones well being if you flake out or taint them the wrong way. Independence is what's up. I really like working on new drum patterns that always come out clever, recieving tour dates for my next big venture, drinking coffee to some of my favorite records in the morning, and finally, whipping up new terminalogy that aim's to confuse or crack up my friends. Fuck what you heard, listen to what makes sense...